Thursday, June 6, 2019

The Suicide King by Vanessa Marie [Review]


Howdy, bibliophiles! It's Selenity Jade, here. It's been AGES since I've posted on my blog here, hasn't it?  I can't believe it's been over three years since I started traveling for work and gave up control of this baby to my cousin, Omra.

I have been working on a different niche website for the last few months, and I kept meaning to come back here, but I just didn't have the right motivation.

So what was the motivation that brought me back to book blogging?

I received a review request that REALLY sparked my interest. A non-romance, darker, and different read than anything else I've got my hands on recently. I said yes.  In fact, I probably squealed for joy.

The Suicide King by Vanessa Marie (Releases July 30, 2019)

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The Suicide King by Vanessa Marie
The Suicide King
Blurb (via the author's website):

Jason King thought suicide was the only answer. 

He couldn't take it anymore. 

The inner demons were winning and he was ready to surrender. 

As far as he was concerned no one would care. 

Everyone would be better off.

No one would notice he was gone. 

Little did he know how wrong he was.

His actions had consequences.

The reach went further than he could have imagined. 

Only his suffering didn't end. 

Stuck in purgatory Jason is forced to walk a new path.

One that shows him how his suicide affected all those involved.

Even the ones he never thought would care. 

The ones he never knew it would reach. 

In this Christmas Carol like tale, Jason King will visit all of those who mourn him. 

He finds out a little too late how wrong he was about everything.

There are major triggers in the book for some people.  You have been warned!

 ==> Buy Here <==

Author's Note on The Suicide King

The author, Vanessa Marie, gives us the reason she wrote The Suicide King.

"I wrote this book to get people to stop and make them think. To give a voice to the voiceless. Mental Health issues still have such a stigma and it should be okay for people to reach out for help. So many lives are shattered by suicides and the ripple effects are far-reaching. My hope is this book can reach someone and change their mind from making that decision. They can see the ripple effects and seek help."

- The Review - 

*I received a free ARC in exchange for an honest review, but I have not been compensated in any way.*

The Suicide King ARC
ARC on My Kindle Paperwhite

About the Book

Jason King, the main character, commits suicide.  This doesn't end his pain as he thought it would.  He's visited by a being called Luke and shown exactly how his decision affected the people around him.

Similar to the Christmas Carol story, Luke is the Ghost of Christmas Present, showing Jason exactly how his suicide affected his family, his friends, his coworkers, his acquaintances, and even strangers.

I'm going to be up front here.  This is NOT my normal read.  At all.  I'm a romance junkie.  Anything romantic, no matter the subgenre, and I'm all over it.  I also throw in some Urban Fantasy series for fun too, as long as it does center around some sort of romance.

This is also not a book you will enjoy.  It's not that kind of read.  It won't give you warm feels, make you smile, or anything positive.  It'll make you think.  It'll make you feel, but not in a good way.  But it absolutely will hold your attention.

What I Liked

This book was well-written.  It touched on a super touchy subject with amazing honesty and frankness.  It handled the topic of suicide without a lot of kid-glove stuff you've read in the past.  It's also from the point of view of the one who committed suicide, yet focuses on the ones who are survivors left behind. It was excellently done.

While I wouldn't call this book 'entertaining', it IS very enthralling and you will find yourself pulled into the story, perhaps unwillingly.  It's different, it's dark, and it will make you think, especially if you've contemplated suicide or know someone who has.

I was engrossed from the start and finished this book in two days.  It was good.  It was thought-provoking.  It was powerful.

I also loved Luke.  He was great.  As the guide of the story, he was epic.  Perhaps the best character in the entire book.

What I Didn't Like

It's definitely not entertaining or a light read, which could be considered a huge negative if you aren't in the mood for this type of book or if this triggers you.

I didn't like Jason.  I couldn't help it. However, I don't know that Jason was even supposed to be likable.  Just real.

Who IS Luke, anyway?  I have my suspicions, but they are never confirmed or corrected.  We're just left wondering.

Who Should Read This Book

Anyone who's ever contemplated suicide or struggles with depression really should read this book.  It's powerful stuff. It'll hopefully make you think before you act.  Hopefully, this book will make you realize how suicide is not the end of pain.  You just transfer it to everyone else.

If you like dark, serious reads, this will also be up your alley.  But if you're sensitive and hate anything that isn't 'fluffy', definitely steer clear.

My Personal Story

I have lived with a family member who has attempted suicide multiple times. I have a cousin who did commit suicide.  I've had a friend who's brother committed suicide decades ago.

I really struggle with this subject because to me, suicide is the ultimate selfish act.  My closest personal experience with it is a family member who keeps 'attempting' so I am angry with people who attempt it or succeed.  I personally don't have a lot of sympathy for it, because to me, it's a very selfish act and selfishness is hard for me to understand. 

It makes me angry that anyone could do this to their loved ones at all. So this book was harder on me.  This is the reason I really disliked Jason.  

That said, the author portrayed this freaking fabulously.  Luke represented pretty much every feeling I've had about the subject PERFECTLY.  This is why I really related to Luke.  It was freaking BRILLIANT.

I have NO Idea How to Rate This, so 4 Stars!
No Idea Mark

I have to admit, this book is hard for me to rate.  

5-star books are books I'll read, over and over again, and is a huge enjoyment.

4-star books are books that are dang good and I'll likely read again.  

3 stars are books that are just okay, entertaining and fun, once, but I won't be back.  

2 stars are books I didn't like and don't recommend.  

1-star is reserved for books I didn't finish because they were that bad.

So how do I rate this one? 

This is not a book I enjoyed, nor will I likely read it again, but it definitely deserves way more than 3 stars, or even 4, but yet, is it a read I loved?  No, not exactly, which is why I have to label this as 4 stars. 

The subject is seriously depressing. But that's the point, isn't it? It's SUPPOSED to be. It's not supposed to be a book that you enjoy.  It's supposed to be a book that makes you think, especially if you've thought about suicide even once.

How do you rate a book that's good, but you didn't enjoy reading?  I was engrossed and interested, but I'm not sure entertained is the word I would use.  

It's a great book, though, just not a fun one.  It's an excellent idea, but not one to be read over and over again.  It just might save a life, but I won't list it as a favorite book.

I DO recommend this book to anyone who struggles with suicidal thoughts.  Read this.  Call a hotline.  Get help. This book very well may save your life.  It might be a 5-star read that changes your life.

I DO recommend this book to anyone who struggles understanding why their loved one committed suicide or attempted suicide. Maybe it'll make you feel more understanding.  It didn't me, but I really wish everyone who thinks suicide is the answer would read this.  Seriously.

It'll make you think about things differently, and it's not going to be pleasant, but it's definitely a must-read book for anyone who can stomach the subject.

This book releases July 30, 2019, and is available for preorder in the links above.  Buy it now!  You won't regret it!

==> Suicide Helplines <==

If you or anyone you know is considering suicide, please reach out for help.  It is available.  

National Suicide Prevention Hotline - 1-800-273-8255
Suicide Prevention Lifeline -

- The Author - 

Vanessa Marie Biography
Picture From the Author's Website
Vanessa Marie is the super talented author of the Suicide King.  Via her website, her bio states:

"Always the cause of shenanigans, Vanessa is a heavily tattooed, sarcastic motorcycle enthusiast who started her career as a Jeep tech at the age of sixteen. The happily married mother of three little monsters—oops, children—lives in Kentucky by way of Las Vegas, Nevada. Once her life took a different direction—sidelined by Heart Disease at 26 and becoming a pacemaker recipient—she decided to write as a creative outlet, and Heartless was born. She realizes life can be dark clouds and acid rain at times, but her outlook on life puts a positive and sarcastic spin on it all."

If you'd like to follow her shenanigans, check her out on her website or social media!



Wednesday, May 29, 2019

REVIEW:Four Daddies’ Secret Twins by Daniella Wright

I snuck out to Werewolf City and spent the night with four men...
Now I'm pregnant and don't know who the father is.
It was all an accident. 

When my own father found out, he locked me up to give birth in a bunker...
No prince charming is coming to my rescue.
Or princes, in this case --they are royal, after all.
But none of that matters right now...
Does it?

It's been so long I'm not even sure they remember my name.
Or the night we spent together.

And who would have thought... 
I am carrying not one, but two of the only heirs they'll ever have...

What would they do if they ever found out?

This is a stand-alone novel with a HEA. Adults only! 

This was completely different from what I thought it would be.It was a hundred times better. One Night Stands and Werewolves, humans, hybrid children and a war between humans and werewolves. Fantasy and action and some naughtiness. Who wouldn't love that.

Andrea oh such a lovely little woman with such fiery and passion about the things she knows are right.

Of the guys there is Richard, Edward, James and Tam. All are extremely different and sexy each in their own way and extremely protective of Andrea and the twins.

Richard is by far my favorite of the guys however i do wish the author would a written a point of view for James because he intrigues me.

And the epilogue so amazing how she ends it . eek..

5 stars

Tuesday, May 28, 2019

REVIEW:Iron Will (Lords of Carnage Ironwood MC) by Daphne Loveling

From USA Today bestselling author Daphne Loveling, comes a new standalone novel, and the first book in the Ironwood MC series!

Biker. Criminal. Bastard.
Rourke Powers is all those things, and more. 

To say we come from different worlds is an understatement. 
I’m ambitious. Professional. I keep my nose clean and my reputation impeccable.
No bad choices. 
No bad boys. 
The VP of the Ironwood Lords of Carnage? 
Definitely not part of the plan.

But when fate slams us together, to protect someone we both care about
It’s impossible to deny the heat between us. 

Whoever said opposites attract? They’re not wrong. 
He’s confident and cocky. 
Deliciously dangerous. Definitely doable.
He’s fire to my ice.
Bad boy to my good girl.

Unfortunately for me, he’s damn near irresistible. 
But I will resist him. I have to. 

I know from bitter experience, men in general can’t be trusted. 
Even the ones who look squeaky clean can harbor dark secrets underneath. 

And Rourke? He doesn’t even try to hide his dangerous side. 

I’m so tempted to give him my body. 
But I’ll never trust Rourke with my heart. 

This was a interesting little twist on a Biker Story.

This was a first time reading a book by this author and I really did like her and love this story.

Laney is a diffrent type of woman she comes from a prominent and weathy family that judges her for her profession that she loves ever so dearly. But she is good and well natured. She follows the rules, that is until she meets Rourke.

YUmmyness that is Rouke oh man, he is something else entirely. Tough hard ass, bad ass for sure with a massive soft spot and it just makes your heart melt to watch this big bad ass guy protect the fragile little girl Paisley.

Paisley oh she melts all the big bad ass bikers little hearts and its oh so frigging cute.

This story is absolutely adorable. The flow of it is a little different than I am used to but still good nonetheless.

4 stars

USA Today Bestselling author Daphne Loveling is a small-town girl who moved to the big city as a young adult in search of adventure.  She lives in the American Midwest with her wonderful husband and the two cats who enslave them. Someday she hopes to retire to a sandy beach somewhere, and continue writing novels with sand between her toes.

Monday, May 20, 2019

REVIEW:Wicked Revenge By Zoey Derrick

He was my protector when the world failed me. 
He hid me away to keep me safe. 
Protected me from those who would destroy me after they destroyed my family. 
He wasn’t innocent, he was going to be the president of the Wicked Angels MC. 
I knew he had secrets, we all do.
But then, he was gone. And I was alone.

Six years after his death, I see the world with new eyes, but those eyes still want revenge on those who took my safe haven, my family, away from me. 

I find myself with two choices. Let it go and move on, or what I'm going to do - get revenge.

Knowing what I have to do, what I need to do, Logan ‘Loki’ Williams stands in my way, loyal to the man who protected me all my life. 

I have loved him since I was three. He was my brother’s best friend. 

But right now, he isn’t my priority. 
I’m so close to getting my revenge.
He may figure out my secrets, but I can’t escape him. 
I won’t give up my plans for him. 
No matter how much he worships my body and calls to my heart.
I will get my wicked revenge. Even if it kills me.

Oh man I love me a good book about sexy bad ass  Biker's. But man oh man Zoey does a fantastic job with this book. This is definitely by far one of my favorite of her books.

This is a definite back and forth with certain characters and newer names or name changes for those characters. So if you cant keep up then it might not be the book for you. It keeps you on your toes for sure.

Kiwi aka Lilly which btw is the funniest nickname ever, is am amazing strong woman. All the shit she goes through I just so many times I cried because of what she was going through.

Loki oh man so many times I just want to murder and kick him in the nuts. So many things he does and its just ridiculous. Makes u frusterated but hes def the right man for Kiwi.

I really wish Zoey would write more Biker books, but im not sure its her preference but damn did she did do a great job with it.

I would love to read one about Trykke and Emily oh what a teaser it was about them in this story.

5 stars

Best Selling Erotic, Paranormal and Contemporary Romance author Zoey Derrick comes from Glendale, Arizona. Zoey, was a mortgage underwriter by day and is now a romance and erotica novelist full-time. She writes stories as hot as the desert sun itself. It is this passion that drips off of her work, bringing excitement to anyone who enjoys a good and sensual love story.
Not only does she aim to take her readers on an erotic dance that lasts the night, it allows her to empty her mind of stories we all wish were true.
 Her stories are hopeful yet true to life, skillfully avoiding melodrama and the unrealistic, bringing her gripping Erotica only closer to the heart of those that dare dipping into it.
The intimacy of her fantasies that she shares with her readers is thrilling and encouraging, climactic yet full of suspense. She is a loving mistress, up for anything, of which any reader is doomed to return to again and again. 

Saturday, May 11, 2019

REVIEW:One Week by Zoey Derrick

A week in Las Vegas and she will feel better about herself. At least that is what Dacotah Miller is hoping will be the case. Left at the alter, heart broken and ashamed, Dacotah takes the opportunity offered by her girlfriends - the chance to get away. The opportunity to escape her mundane life in the middle of nowhere Wisconsin.

But what Dacotah doesn't know is that lurking in Las Vegas is the chance of a lifetime, a dream come true, in the form of Derek Hunter.

Derek, in town on business, can't seem to focus on his purpose once Dacotah walks into his field of vision. She beautiful and just what he needs to cure his desire for a good woman in his bed. Only she presents a challenge to him unlike anything he's ever experienced before.

Dacotah will be wrapped up in a whirlwind of unexpected events that will force her to make a decision, life changing choice. Does she get on the plane back to boring Wisconsin and wonder what might have been? Or will she step on board a private jet that promises to take her on a journey she will never forget?

***** Content Warning *****

This book contains explicit sex, language and an indecent proposal from a billionaire. Story contains strong BDSM themed scenes and is not recommended for anyone under the age of 18.

One Week is a STANDALONE novel with over 100K words.

I was super excited to see this stand alone novel about Derek and Dakota. I got introduced to them through the 69 Bottles series in Dex's story and their characters made me super curious about how they got started.

This is another amazing story of Zoey Derrick's, God Dakota has gone through so much and is such a do everything for everyone else.She doesn't see herself as anything special or gorgeous and the only guy she was ever with was a cheater that she caught cheating at their wedding rehearsal and he keeps trying to track her down even tho he got someone else pregnant.

Now Derek or Orion as Dakota named him before she knew his name. He is something else entirely. Completely commanding and knows what he wants when he wants it. He stalks her in Vegas and gets her to agree to spend the week together where he screws up numerous times leaving her in tears and ends up falling for her.

She runs and he chases its an amazing love story I totally want to just go read it again right now so good.

5 stars

Born in The United States 
GenreRomance, Contemporary, Paranormal
Member SinceSeptember 2012

Best Selling Erotic, Paranormal and Contemporary Romance author Zoey Derrick comes from Glendale, Arizona. Zoey, was a mortgage underwriter by day and is now a romance and erotica novelist full-time. She writes stories as hot as the desert sun itself. It is this passion that drips off of her work, bringing excitement to anyone who enjoys a good and sensual love story.

Not only does she aim to take her readers on an erotic dance that lasts the night, it allows her to empty her mind of stories we all wish were true.
 Her stories are hopeful yet true to life, skillfully avoiding melodrama and the unrealistic, bringing her gripping Erotica only closer to the heart of those that dare dipping into it. 

The intimacy of her fantasies that she shares with her readers is thrilling and encouraging, climactic yet full of suspense. She is a loving mistress, up for anything, of which any reader is doomed to return to again and again.